Liz Sherman (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
open_flame) wrote2009-09-06 07:41 am
open_flame) wrote2009-09-06 07:41 am
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Kitten! - Twitter 'verse
So, I decided that Sylar I right. Not that there's ever been a time that I thought Sylar was wrong that I have seen. Anyway, he's right, I'm too emotional. I never used to be is the strange thing. Sure, I cried around Red a few times, but i usually kept it all to myself. They didn't like it around BPRD and it was always best to make sure they were happy if you ever wanted out.
Maybe it's because when I got here, Sylar was so confident in me that I mistook him for a friend first and a boss second. The only other person who had confidence in me from the moment I met them was Prof. Broom, and he's dead now. I'm disappointingly Sylar, and it kills me. I can deal with disappointing Red, and I can even deal with disappointing Jack. They know me. They know how selfish and childish I can be without even meaning to. Sylar doesn't, and i wish he didn't see it.
Sylar is changing, and I'm changing too. The thing that scares me the most if that the way we are changing, we're not as friendly as I'd like anymore. It's weird feeling like I can't talk to him anymore without getting him upset. I guess thats what I get for trying to be something better than what I really am.
Avoided Gabriel and Jack successfully today, but then again, all I did was go to the coffee house with Eden and then to the pet shelter. I got a kitten. I think i maxxed out my credit card buying her a bunch of stuff. Eden helped pick her out. She was already named April, just like my birthday, and she was the only one who didn't hiss at me when I got close. I've got a 300 dollar cat tree in pieces on my living room floor right now, and April won't quit climbing in the plastic that it was wrapped in. i keep throwing her on the couch, but she keeps jumping back down and playing in the mess.
It's adorable.
Maybe it's because when I got here, Sylar was so confident in me that I mistook him for a friend first and a boss second. The only other person who had confidence in me from the moment I met them was Prof. Broom, and he's dead now. I'm disappointingly Sylar, and it kills me. I can deal with disappointing Red, and I can even deal with disappointing Jack. They know me. They know how selfish and childish I can be without even meaning to. Sylar doesn't, and i wish he didn't see it.
Sylar is changing, and I'm changing too. The thing that scares me the most if that the way we are changing, we're not as friendly as I'd like anymore. It's weird feeling like I can't talk to him anymore without getting him upset. I guess thats what I get for trying to be something better than what I really am.
Avoided Gabriel and Jack successfully today, but then again, all I did was go to the coffee house with Eden and then to the pet shelter. I got a kitten. I think i maxxed out my credit card buying her a bunch of stuff. Eden helped pick her out. She was already named April, just like my birthday, and she was the only one who didn't hiss at me when I got close. I've got a 300 dollar cat tree in pieces on my living room floor right now, and April won't quit climbing in the plastic that it was wrapped in. i keep throwing her on the couch, but she keeps jumping back down and playing in the mess.
It's adorable.